Lily Allen Says She’s ‘Really Not in a Good Place’ and That She’s Been ‘Spiraling and Spiraling’

Lily Allen is planning to take a break amid her ongoing mental health struggles.

On the Thursday, Jan. 9 episode of her BBC podcast Miss Me? with co-host Miquita Oliver, Allen, 39, admitted she’s “finding it really hard to be interested in anything” at the moment while discussing the fact she hadn’t seen Sunday’s 2025 Golden Globes.

“I’m just so… I’m really not in a good place,” the “Not Fair” singer told Oliver.

She continued, “I know I’ve been talking about it for months, but I’ve been spiraling and spiraling and spiraling and it’s got out of control.”

“I tried, I mean, I came to the Christmas lunch, the Miss Me? Christmas lunch, and I had a panic attack and had to go home. I went to see something at the theater the other night with my [friends] Carlo and Claire, and I had to leave at halftime,” Allen shared.

The mother of two — who married husband David Harbour, 49, in 2020 — continued, “I just can’t concentrate on anything except the pain that I’m going through.”

“It’s really, really hard,” she added, confirming she was going to be taking a bit of a break.

“I’m going away next week. You’re not gonna hear me for a few weeks, listeners,” Allen said, denying “vicious rumors” claiming she’d relapsed and was going to rehab, clearly getting emotional on the show.

Allen’s reps didn’t immediately respond when contacted by PEOPLE.

The musician, who has been sober for five years, has spoken openly about being free from drugs and alcohol.

The daughter of actor and comedian, Keith Allen, told the U.K. newspaper The Times in a November interview, “I think that addiction runs deep in my family, so self-medicating was going to be on the cards. For me, it didn’t really feel like an ‘if,’ it was a ‘when.’ ”

“The journey of sobriety isn’t singular, and it isn’t linear. So if sharing my own experiences and struggles helps even just one person process what they’re going through, then it’s all worth it,” the star, who is an ambassador for the British addiction charity Forward Trust, told the outlet.

Allen has also been open about her mental health struggles on her podcast, sharing on the Dec. 16 episode that she’s been having difficulty eating for the past three years, which she’d kept hidden from her therapist.

“I’ve been going through a tough time over the last few months and my eating has become a real issue,” she said on the show.

Allen, who previously said she suffered from bulimia in 2011, said on the Dec. 16 podcast episode that she didn’t necessarily lie in therapy, but she’d been unintentionally leaving aspects of her life out during her sessions.

“It’s just because it hasn’t seemed at the top of the list of the important things that I need to talk about,” she said, adding elsewhere on the podcast, “I’m really not in a great place mentally at the moment.”

If you or someone you know is struggling with an eating disorder, please go to NationalEatingDisorders.org. 

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